Her Last Chance 3

THREE

There was much to do still. Between them, Lianna, Stavros and Ernie shuffled boxes and loose slates and uniforms tossed carelessly over the bed and dresser. The boxes with her parents’ journals they moved to the pilot deck until they could think of a better storage space. Then Lianna shifted her undergarments to the bottom drawer. That left the two upper drawers for Gita’s belongings. Lianna never had that much junk to begin with.

Fortunately the station’s allotment allowed her to run a warm bath for Gita. She wanted this first day to be special. Gita wriggled out of her half-sari, which she promptly tossed to the deck as she climbed in. I’ll have to teach her some neatness, Lianna thought, but reconsidered once it dawned on her that she was in need of such training herself. Gita giggled lost in the bubbles, then beckoned with both hands. Lianna pointed at herself, to which Gita nodded. “Okay, kid, but I don’t know if this is proper—”

A shrill yelp jerked Lianna off the deck. Her skinsuit was draped half off of her chest. Both of Gita’s hands were clasped to her small mouth, and then she peeled one away to point at Lianna’s bare back. She didn’t need to incline herself toward the powder room’s mirror. For once she’d forgotten the fist-sized circular welts scarring her back. There would be more covering her arms and legs.

I guess this is gonna be one of those talks. She knelt beside the tub, still half exposed, and took Gita by the hands. “Sorry, kid, there are monsters in this universe.” She wanted to say more—NEEDED to reassure the child. All of a sudden, though, she was drawing a blank. ”Guess that’s another reason I hide under a skinsuit,” Lianna sighed. Gita’s hands flicked furiously, splattering water on them both. “Yeah,” Lianna said, looking down. “I killed it. It killed me, too.”

Gita’s arms opened to her. Lianna leaned in to hug her as her tail flopped out of the bath to tug at Lianna’s waist. “Okay. Then I suppose you’ll want to hear all about how your mom avenged me.”

After a good long soak and a toweling off, she tucked her little baby in to her cot. Gita held her with a worried frown. “It’s okay,” Lianna reassured her. “I usually don’t sleep here anyway.”

Little Stavros crawled across the cot to climb under the blankets beside Gita. Something warm beat inside Lianna, just gazing at the pair of them beside each other. “I’m gonna stay here a minute, just till you fall asleep. Okay?”

Both children nodded. Lianna didn’t know if the little ameboid needed ‘sleep’. Even so, unlike her parent body, she seemed to have grown eyelids that shut lightly over her oversized pupils at the same time as Gita’s. Lianna sat in a stiff back seat watching Gita’s blankets rise and fall with the soft whistles from her nostrils, with Little Stavros’ arm across her. Yeah, just a few minutes…

She jerked suddenly to a stiff ache in her back. Lianna stretched and groaned as the chronometer rang Nine in the morning. Had she been there all…? Never mind. Gita had already bounded out of bed, flinging the blankets half off the cot with Little Stavros bouncing right along behind her. Okay, what to do, first? Best to update Fayd at the observatory; he’d be worried sick.

Ernie had the linkage tied in before Lianna poured her first cup of qahwah sadah, with cardamom. Ooh, that woke her up. She sat in the command chair, patchy as it was, while the girls raced all over the ship. “Poppa,” Lianna smiled as a dark haired, lean faced man with two day old stubble smiled back at her across the stars.

“Habibi!” Fayd grinned back. “How goes the symposium?” Lianna raised her right hand and wriggled it, flat to her chest level. Faud shook her head. “I know that sigh, Habibi. What can I do?’

“There’s a bunch of fanatics who’ve shut me down for a couple of days. You know, I’m longing for the days when I could hang out in the calibration chamber with you. Nobody else wanted me around then either. I was always grateful you put up with me, Poppa.”

“Pff! You needed a secluded place where you could acclimate to us, to the observatory. I was happy to offer you the space.”

Lianna ducked her head as the thought barged back in: I was an animal.

She recalled she was a child, still feral after months fending for herself. The other scientists, apart from the Professor, tolerated her but kept their distance. Faud had given her free roam of a critical but isolated area on the station. Sometimes he left her a warm bowl of hummus which she devoured with her bare hands. He kept his keffiyeh folded neatly beside himself as he conducted routine adjustments or took precise stellar measurements at the telescope array.

One day she’d crept up and put it on just as she’d seen him wear it. She fiddled with the egel, winding it three times around her small head instead of the traditional twice. Fayd eyed her across a telescope and thought he’d be furious. Then he chuckled and resumed his work. Nobody else had thought she was cute at that point, and it helped her relax a little.

Some weeks later while he ducked inside a telescope tube, he asked, “Could you hand me that spanner, Habibi?” She grabbed the tool, but then padded toward him slowly, pausing every few steps. His hand remained open, expectantly. Finally she slapped the spanner into his hand and dodged behind a power conduit.  Fayd smiled, “thank you,” and continued his adjustments.

Lianna raised her head, returning his radiant smile. “You taught me everything I know about astrophysics and mechanics, and everything else.”

Fayd shrugged. “I know what it is to be abandoned. It’s a heritage my fathers and my mothers handed down in story and song, I did my little part to welcome you to our family.”

“You always did, Poppa. Speaking of which, I’ve got someone you’ve gotta meet…”

After she shut off the link, Lianna rubbed her eyes. “What to do…?”

“Might I suggest you get dressed first,” Ernie chimed behind her, shaking ten years’ growth off her. “Breakfast might also be in order for little Gita. It is the most important meal of the day.”

She found a shawarma deli in the Slush Pit she loved. Gita’s nose was practically in the cook’s pan as he mixed eggs, tomatoes, peppers and more and sauteed it to a warm stew. The cook was a genius, and after a second helping she left an extra big tip. If only the rest of the day had been so pleasant.

Back on the Observation Deck, a hooded figure loomed over the crowd, despite his hunched posture. With him were two equally long companions, all huddled close, cringing with each bump from the bustling humanity. Ordinarily Lianna would shy away, except, something familiar tingled inside her. With Gita still riding her shoulders, she visualized an empty starfield. Once her mind was clear, she sent out a single thought message: “Bon?”

The lead figure froze, straitening head and shoulders over the passing patrons. Then he and his companions turned to her, three slender beings with pale iridescent eyes large as saucer plates. The lead fellow tapped his staff on the deck and sent back: “Star sister!”

Gita’s leg muscles must’ve been stronger than they looked. Lianna nearly dislodged her when she barreled right int Bon’s chest and flung her arms around him. The crowd seemed to disappear as she snuggled into him. His companions draped their arms around her in turn. “It’s been so long,” she thought. “How have you been, my friend?”

“We are…fine,” Bon returned. “Just fine.” He gazed across her into Gita’s eyes. “And you have a child now. Blessings to you both. Do you hide her true nature for her protection?”

Lianna started in their collective grip. Then she gazed up into Bon’s face. “Yeah. There’s some loonies here. Is everything okay?”

The tall figure sagged again. “We are returning home. This place is not…welcoming.”

“I’m sorry.” Another tickle in her brain. “Yeah, they’re not exactly happy to see me, either.” Buzz. Lianna grinned. “You saw my symposium?”

“Indeed. It was very enlightening. We regret that your brethren are not open enough to receive your findings.”

“They haven’t even heard the really weird shit.” Bon bent down and they touched skulls. As his forehead touched Lianna’s, Gita reached down to touch Bon’s face. Where a nose and mouth would normally be in humans, his people displayed a stretched plate of skin. She signed, indicating her mouth.

“We oxygenate in our own way. Does our appearance frighten–?”

A swift jab at his shoulder dispelled that concern. She leaned across Lianna’s neck and tossed both arms around Bon’s head.

“I wish I’d known you were here,” Lianna sighed. “I’d have loved to spend some time with you. You always made me welcome.”

“We did not wish to endanger you. We have received some…unsavory correspondence.” His left-hand companion extracted a slip of paper from the sleeve of his robe. A slash cleaved through the upper right corner. Still, the note was bad enough: NOT IN OUR SOLR SYSTEM—ALIEN TRASH DON’T BELONG HERE.

Lianna was tempted to crumble the paper to dust, if she could. Her hands tightened inside her skinsuit as she fought the impulse. “Did you show this to the Commander?”

“Yes. It was examined. No fingerprints were found to trace the individuals responsible, so the Commander was unable to take action. So she says.”

“I bet.”

“We cannot stay longer. Our ship awaits. I’m sorry our visit has been contracted.”

“Could I at least walk you back to your ship? Just to make sure you’re safe?”

“Of course, star sister.”

With Gita holding Bon’s hand on one side and Lianna’s arm laced around the other, they walked together toward the space dock. Every once in a while, Lianna would shoot a poisonous glance at the milling crowd, daring anyone to challenge them. Outside the docking plate, Bon paused to offer Lianna a thought. “It is not true.”

“Sorry?”

“You are not the Harlot of Babylon, or any of the other accusations certain visitors have been thinking. You have always come to us without malice or prejudice. These are new things among us. It has always been a pleasure to call you friend.”

“And I’ve always been grateful for your friendship.”

Their ship was not ostentatious. Sleek pterodactyl wings braced a tubular body from which extended a 20-meter neck capped by a two-seater pilot’s capsule. “It’s gorgeous,” Lianna breathed aloud.

“Before we depart…” Bon hesitated in his transmissions. “May we see young Gita as she truly is?”

Lianna frowned, until Bon’s companions nodded and flanked Gita, flaring their cloaks as a shield. Between one breath and the next she’d traded her legs for a shimmering serpent’s trunk. Lianna sensed the awe in all her friend’s thoughts as she thumped her tail on the deck. If it were possible, Bon probably would’ve whistled. “The holy mothers,” thought he. All three raised their right arms to their chests, bowing their heads respectfully.

Then she had her legs again, and the pair pulled their cloaks tight around themselves again. Lianna and Gita vacated the docking area, waiting by the airlock hatch as Bon’s ship dipped from the launch bay. Her booster jets lifted her clear of the station. First she banked toward the Oort Cloud. Then it was a streak departing the Sol System. A surge of heat swelled Lianna’s cheeks. “Come on, kid,” she said to Gita. “We’ve got someone to see.”

Commander Stephensen was scrolling through a slate when Lianna burst in. “WHEN THE HELL ARE YOU GOING TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THESE LUNATICS?”

The report hovering above the Commander’s palm burst like a solar prominence. She sighed as both hands dropped to her side. “I assume you’re referring to Captain Bon’s merry crew.”

“Don’t you patronize him—ever! I’m referring to someone who welcome me as an honored guest, who always treated me and all visitors to his planet with courtesy and respect. For Christ’s sake, he saved my life!”

“I’m glad.” They stood across from each other over a mural of the Milky Way Galaxy emblazoning the floor, Lianna huffing as the Commander stared at her feet. “Did he tell you they tried to vandalize his starship 48 hours after he landed? I’ve initiated deportation proceedings against thirteen members of this FAITH sect.”

“Sorry, faith—?

“Jesus Christ, don’t you even know who’s harassing you? “The Commander—Cassie—ticked off each word into her right palm. “The Fellowship of Agnostic Inter-Terrestrial Humans. They believe we made mistakes, ruined our chances on Earth, allowed refugees into developed nations—”

“—After they ruined their indigenous lands or flooded them out of existence—”

“—Can I finish? Can I? They don’t want to dilute the purity of our species, or some crap like that. They believe they should permit bonds between the best pairs of people, to bring the best fruit to bear.”

“Yeah, there’s a word for that. It’s called inbreeding. Why can’t you boot the rest of those fanatics off the station?”

“It’s not that easy. They’ve claimed their religious liberties have been trespassed on back on Terra. That’s what forced them into space in the first—”

“Nobody forced them! People stopped believing because they were acting like jackasses!”

“How would you know? You’ve never been to Earth! You weren’t even born there!”

“I have it on an extraordinarily good authority.”

Another silence, only punctuated by Cassie’s nails rapping on her desktop as she eyed Gita. “One question. People are gonna ask. Where did she come from?”

“I’m her appointed guardian,” Lianna said. Gita meanwhile was tapping on her padd, which she momentarily handed to Cassie. Her eyes widened occasionally as she scrolled through.

‘Well, we both know she couldn’t be your natural child,” Cassie muttered with a sad tinge in her voice. “I’m happy for you, I truly am. I saw how good you were with the kids at your show. I assume you have some legal documentation to support your guardianship. People are gonna ask.”

Lianna’s stomach seemed to drop. But she kept her expression neutral. “People already have.”

“Goddamn waste of time,” Lianna grumbled, her hand tightly gripping Gita’s. She’d hoped some solace would be found at the Portal. Solitude certainly wasn’t. Someone was already standing by it. A very tall someone; she had to be at least a head taller than Lianna. Her neck length curls seemed frizzy, and there were prominent bags under her eyes. But her skin was a glistening cinnamon brown under a coral tinted shawl flowing to her heels. Dogs and butterflies danced all across the fabric. “Hey gorgeous,” Lianna greeted her.

She grinned. “Hello. Do you greet everyone in that manner?”

“It puts most people at ease,” Lianna shrugged. It worked for most exospecies, too.

“You’re Doctor Jensen, aren’t you? I’ve seen your presentation.”

Sweet Kali, she was falling in love with that husky lilt of hers. “Yeah. Where are you from?”

“Earth, of course, the same as you,” she laughed. “And who is this little sweetheart?” She bent low over Gita. Then suddenly her hands flashed over Gita’s ribs. The child burst into giggles before ducking behind Lianna. She peeked over her right thigh, still giggling. “She’s delightful! Who’s the father?”

Shit. That’s three. “Umm…I’m acting as her guardian. I don’t know about the father. I didn’t—oww!” She glared at Gita before she could pinch her again. Did nagas even need a father?

The lady had turned aside so Lianna and Gita could have a better view out the Portal. “Isn’t that something? So many beings skimming through the atmosphere, drinking helium and expelling hydrogen. And no one knows.”

Lianna frowned. “How do YOU know? No life has ever been confirmed on Uranus.”

She shrugged. “I know. No one has bothered to properly search. They’re too enthralled with more romantic facades like Titan or Mars. Uranus has her charms…ohhh.”

Her eyes grew rounder, her hands rising to her mouth as the daily flash from the polar beacons illuminated the planet’s rings in an pale iridescent glow, like a saw blade rotating toward the station. For just a few seconds, Uranus’ cloud features became more prominent, displaying faint bands amidst a global haze. “Look, we have to go,” Lianna said after a few minutes.

The lady nodded, “I’ll be around. Call on me if you need anything.”

“That would be a neat trick, since I don’t even know your name.”

“Some people call me Fatima. I’ve kind of gotten used to people calling me Granny. That’s how most of the crew knows me around the station. Take care.” She reached out to stroke Lianna’s shoulder, then turned away.

Doctor Jensen had disappeared with her child into the bowels of the ship. As she turned back to the Portal, a blue skinned reflection stared back. “Contact has been made,” Granny sighed. “I hope you’re happy.”

Part 1: https://mike3839.com/2023/09/

Part 2: https://mike3839.com/2024/04/03/her-last-chance-part-2/

Excerpt: Midnight Interruption

A short excerpt from my next novel in progress, Sanity’s Edge. Enjoy.

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I slipped off the ship after dark, once I could sense that everyone in the village was asleep. The forest was new but Mama had found me a new friend. We stared at each other under the shade of a mango tree as the Moon climbed into the sky.    Its tongue flicked the air in the three-meter space that divided us. This wasn’t one of the gen-altered snakes I was accustomed to from my home. This bugger was all wild, possibly the first of its kind that I’d seen since childhood, possibly the first I’d ever seen in my life. Sweet Ngai, was she massive! Her trunk was thicker around than my thighs.

I sensed her full belly, so I had no worries on that score. Her scales had a fresh gloss, as though she had just completed shedding not too long ago. I suppose she wouldn’t object to a warm body to enfold. I closed the distance between us and stepped into her embrace.

I knew this would be a problem as soon as a hundred kilos seemed to land on my hips, pressing me down. My knees buckled at first, but I kept to my feet as a second curl of muscle wound behind my legs, brushing the skin of my thighs before plopping atop the first coil, in the process pushing up my breasts.

Both were solid rippling muscle. A thrill shuddered through my chest, and perhaps a little excitement. I’d never given myself to such a beast before. A third coil slipped past my shoulders, pressing my breasts into flattened ovals between them. Sweat trickled over them and down the middle of my back; but that was probably just the heat of this place. For now, I was content.       As I held out my hand, the last meter of its tail settled in my palm, circling twice before cinching tight. With my eyes shut, we dropped as one bundled mass into the soft grass.

Of course that wasn’t the end of it. When was it ever so? The sun had barely emerged as a pink fingernail on the horizon when my hand comm chirruped in my waist pouch. This was ten meters away, along with the rest of my clothes.

Brutus, for so I named her, showed no inclination to release such a rich source of warmth, and gods, I didn’t want to leave this body hug just yet, either. Oh well. I stretched forth my free hand, the new new left one.

The hand comm made an oddly hard thump as it whipped through the grass into the false meat of my false hand. I settled back in Brutus’s coils, pillowing my neck on hers as I put the comm to my ear. “Jambo?

“The correct greeting would be I ni sogoma, young miss, but we will let it pass this time,” a firm male voice replied. “Am I speaking to Miss Jamai Dlamini?”

“Yes,” I said, suddenly a little nervous.

“My name is Magistrate Oumar Hadad, the local prefect for this hamlet. Would it be possible for you to spare me a few minutes?”

“H-have I done something wrong?”

“Not at all. Your Captain Ismalla discovered you missing this morning and got it into his head that you would be in the fields, with a snake. And so you are.”

My body seemed to have frozen, even snug in Brutus’ coils, though my stare darted left and right. “Don’t be alarmed. The local children spotted you sleeping from some trees they were climbing. They almost took you for dead, but for the fact that you were snoring.”

“I snore…?”

“My deputy has been watching you via long-range glasses, to see to your safety. He will escort you to my office, in your own time.”

My own time…I could make them wait another hour…No, best to be done with it. “Whenever he’s done masterbating, I’d like to dress in peace.”

A deliberate pause followed. “Let me speak with him. You can pull yourself together while I’m berating him.” And the comm chirrped off.

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A Beginning [fragment]

[Hello there. This was something I scribbled one night for a project that may or may not ever come to fruition, bringing together all my female characters. Just for the hell of it I’m throwing it out here. See what you think. Enjoy.–Mike.]

She pushed herself up from the pile of bodies, wrinkling her nostrils against the sulfar stench wafting up from the lowlands. She stood tall, her cinammon-skin already damp with perspiration. Someone had thoughtfully provided a tight pair of snakeskin trunks, while leaving her feet bare. Next time, she mused, I get to pick my outfit.

Perhaps it was still night, Jamai thought. Somehow she knew this purple skyline with her roiling storm clouds had always been so. All it needed was a cliché bolt of–

Holie!” And here it comes, grounded to the lightning rod her small companion thrust into the catwalk at the last second. A blinding flash illuminated her in white silhouette, but in all respects she appeared unharmed.

“Hah! Take that, you dinkoff! Nobody beats science around here!” After taking one quick around, she added to herself, “God willing.” None the less, her khaki shorts and dingy white safari blouse appeared undamaged.

“Well played, sister,” Jamai smiled, taking Kiana Richards’ hand.

“It was nothing special,” Kiana shrugged, flicking her neck-length auburn hair back from her face. “These things were just lying on the catwalk. It just seemed like the thing to do. One question…”

“Yes. Where are we?”

“Exactly where you need to be,” another voice intruded. Another sister. Her bootsteps rattled on the catwalk’s struts, shaking the fragile structure and sending sympathetic shivers through all their bodies. The violet skinsuit graced all her best features, while the window cut into the chest fabric did nothing to hide her globes.

“Lianna,” Jamai nodded.

Kiana did the same, adding, “This is gonna get confusing fast. So tell me, we were all called together for a reason, or fell out of time or some crap?”

“No need to get snarky, red.” A collective startle jumped up into their hearts as they jerked to the right. Another blonde like Lianna crouched on the handrail, honey-tinged this time. But even in this dank light she was pale beyond reason, the tips of her fangs dimpling the corners of her lips. Leather cloaked her from those wetlook leggings to the slinky coat on her back. “Hi there. I’m Vye.” Nudging Jamai’s forearm, she said, “Hi again, bosoms. Been a while.”

To the others she said this. “It’s probably appropriate that I’m here at least. Take a look down.”

Her gaze angled over the rail. Together the three of them joined Vye in peeking twenty stories down to the field of lava breathing acrid fumes below. A dark crust formed over a large proportion of the landscape, but there remained bubbling honeypots oozing fresh magma. And towards the east, from their position at least, there heaved a maw filled with stalactite teeth, wide enough to gorge on an elephant.

“Let me guess,” Kiana whistled. “That’s the devil himself.”

“I’m going for something more general,” Vye replied. “Evil from before the dawn of time.”

“And what say you, Godwalker?”

This was getting to be such a regular occurrence, the ladies simply joined in a mutual sag, then turned to greet the new intruders. Apparently this was to be the first man on their team, a husky fellow in buckskin breeches and waistcoat over a plain white shirt, with moccasins and a leather sash girding his Bowie knife.

“Welcome, Jeremiah,” Lianna grinned. “You’re just in time. Bring the reinforcements?” He nodded.

As the portal opened wide behind him, Kiana asked, “Excuse me. Godwalker?”                     “Just a nickname,” Lianna squirmed.

“You don’t say,” Jamai queried with her raised eyebrows.

Throwing up her hands, Lianna elaborated. “All right, I may have met some Hindu gods, and they were kind to me…”

“Hah! More like they fondled you!” Vye laughed.

“So wait…are we all…dead?” Kiana whispered.

“Only some of us, lass!” spoke the tall Irish beauty striding from the portal, flowing skirt trailing her. Beside her a girl of Chinese-American descent practically skipped to keep pace. Besides her TV-Western cowboy outfit, she also lugged a Santa Claus-sized bag across her right shoulder.

The flaming red Irish woman shook all their hands in turn. “Top of the day, lasses. I’m Caitlan, this poor we’en is my partner, Fong. As ye can see, television has thoroughly corrupted her.”

“Sez you,” Fong’s higher pitched voice laughed. “I got the gear.” She looked toward Jamai and smiled. “Hi, Granny!”

Six pairs of eyes at various heights swiveled to a suddenly bashful Jamai. “It’s an affectionate appellation…ohh!” Any shy feelings evaporated as Caitlan and Fong both swept in for a hug.

Lianna harumphed, drawing their attention. “Okay, we all know each other…most of us. We’re all connected in some way. We’re all sisters. A-and brother,” she noted, waving a hand to Jeremiah.

“We’ve all experienced our days of terror, all looked into the face of damnation. I can’t force you to do this, but…that thing down there represents a power even the gods are a little nervous about. We all have our powers, all have our own little gifts, and that’s going to come in handy in the next few minutes. So, I’m asking you, will you stand with me?” As she spoke, so she circulated among the gathered, touching each of her allies with a gloved hand. Those hands were now open, beckoning.

“We’re gonna need a way down there,” Vye commented.

“That’s what we’re here for,” Fong huffed, dropping the bag onto the catwalk. Reaching inside with both small hands, she distributed a rocket pack to each of her fellow warriors. Each one of them fastened the gear as though they’d done this before, like they’d done this all their lives.

“All we need now,” said Kiana cheerily, “is Gail Simone to lead us.”

“Maybe next time,” Fong chipped in.

“Ready, Godwalker?” Jeremiah smiled.

“Don’t call me that,” Lianna moaned. As the smallest, Vye and Kiana bunched on the rails, ready to push off. Everyone else dropped to a runner’s crouch, ready to watch Lianna’s back.

“Okay,” she called, “Let’s go!”

—-

Mikes’ latest book, FATHERS AND DAUGHTERS, is available at amazon.com.

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Butterfly & Serpent: Smile

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Looking ahead a bit, I think. This sketch details where I want to take Jamai, although to be perfectly frank, this brash happy version, confident in herself and her sexuality, will have to pass through fire getting to this point. That’s where the third book in the trilogy, Sanity’s Edge, will take her. I’ll keep you posted.

 

Mikes’ latest book, FATHERS AND DAUGHTERS, is still available at amazon.com.  Mike’s Amazon page:

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Interview Extract

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BLOG–You’ve consistently refused being termed a ‘mutant’, ‘psychic’, ‘medium’ et al. May I ask why?

JAMAI–Because they’re just labels. They’re another way of saying ‘you’re a freak, you don’t belong.’

B–I take it you’re not fond of labels.

J–I despise them. It’s just another way of dividing people, of keeping them down. Listen, my husband’s uncle once told me that words have a profound effect on our social relations. When I was young I was stupid enough to let myself be blinkered by these insults.

B–I’d never call you stupid.

J–Appreciated. I’ll give you an example of what I mean from your own day and age. The great Miles Davis was invited to participate in a charity record–“Sun City”, and the umbrella title for the group was Artists United Against Apartheid. The project was spearheaded by Steven Van Zandt. Miles’ part was to be edited into a jazz track, but at some point in his performance, Miles started muttering, “you can’t go in there, you’re the wrong color.”

B–“The Struggle Continues,” that was the track.

J–Good. There’s hope for you yet. Well, Miles’ rap was entirely spontaneous, but so truthful, that they built that whole track around it.

B–I guess what you’re saying is today, right now, you’re comfortable with who you are?

J–Why shouldn’t I be? I tried to fit in, to be like ‘everybody else’. But the truth is, people or bosses or your leaders will never be satisfied no matter how much you try to fit in. Why should I change to satisfy them? Why make myself uncomfortable with myself? I’m a person and I’m different. So what? I don’t have to prove anything to anyone but myself. And neither do you. If who you are isn’t good enough form “them”, whoever “they” are, they can get stuffed!

(shared laughter)

FATHERS & DAUGHTERS, the second book in the BUTTERFLY & SERPENT book series, is now out on http://www.amazon.com as a paperback & Kindle.

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A New Celebration [holiday story]

My beautiful picture

Illustration to accompany ‘A New Celebration’ by Simon & Buburuz, c. 1997
A NEW CELEBRATION
Narrated by Youssou Hissen Hadebe

Jamai was in her father’s garden, her copper-toned skin slick from the pouring rain. Not that it was the place to be on this, the sixth day of Kwanzaa, but what is one to do? Her long legs pranced among the millet stalks as she sang praises to Ngai.

Behind her glided a mechanical mahuti, which resembled a rooster in block form. Its cockscomb of sensors wriggled in search of grubs. The built-in box behind the ‘neck’ was already half-full of grain when I called from the trail: “May I help?”

Jamai glanced up with a smile and beckoned me on. Her rain shawl, I noticed, was embroidered with a tangled design of vines. Woven them was her totem, the butterfly. I shunted my sandals and joined her.

We were both in our mid-teens at that time. Although Jamal I s skin wasn’t black like mine, it is a feature our two families, the Hadebes and Dlaminis, have chosen to overlook. However, her strange features—those green eyes and split parentage—were enough to bar her from virtually all tribal functions.

“My uncle is visiting us today,” she said abruptly. The sudden break in the silence almost made me tear up a stalk by the roots. The mahuti chirruped imperiously as Jamai smiled and continued.

“I’ve never met him. My relatives in Kibarenge cut Baba off when he married Mama.” She rambled on in the same cheerful voice, plucking grains faster and faster. “I wonder what he’ll be like, if he’s as dour as Baba or…well, whatever.” There was a new huskiness under her natural Swahili, no doubt an influence of her mother’s spirit.

There were about twenty plots here, one for each of our village’s families. Fruit trees and amaranth bordered individual lands, and at alternating corners were container-blocks of humus. Our machines were housed in nearby sheds, from which they could be floated out at our convenience. A normal work shift would last six hours. Jamai didn’t have to pick the millet heads by hand, we had specialized tools for that. That was simply her way, the traditional ways she embraced.

Over the patter of rain she asked, “Youssou, is it true Kwanzaa did not originate in Africa?”

“That is so,” I replied. “My teacher says the ceremonies crossed over from the Americas about four or five hundred years ago, not long after the last war. It first landed on the Atlantic coast and spread inland like kudzu. Supposedly Kwanzaa has replaced all the old festivals lost in the destabilized times, and every people has made it to their own liking.”

“Ah. I ‘ve often wondered.” She reached into the humus-bag strung across her belly, and carne up empty, I shook myself off and started to rise, but she smiled and said, “Never mind.” Then she closed her eyes and stretched out her hand. Jamai had become very practiced in the use of her power. Except for the rise in the wind she gave few outward signs of its use. In the corner of the field, the humus block’s lid flopped open. Suddenly a black glob streaked towards her waiting hand.

It didn’t land gently. Dirt splattered in a dozen directions. Jamai t s eyes snapped open with a start and stared at the putrid clods scattered in a five-meter radius around her, and already attracting flies. “Sorry, I must have wished too hard

“So you have,” I said, wiping my eyes. “I see your butterflies are not around. Come to that I haven’t seen many caterpillars, either.”

She glanced at me meaningfully. “I can’t allow them in here,” she replied, turning away. “You don’t know how hard it is to keep them away. All this ready-made food is such a temptation even I–aiii!”

Her anguished cry and a sudden squirting sound made me snap around, Jamai’ s face and hands were drenched in a yellow, rancid-smelling liquid. I whirled at the rustle of grass in time to see a pair of ten-year-olds, led by an older boy, scurrying away. I ignored all three then and, taking off my overshirt, wiped Jamai ‘s face off. Then I yanked up the offender, a jokester’s squirting flower, and flung it among the weeds.

“If they put as much ambition into their studies as they did with their pranks,” I grumbled, “Baba Elgonyi would be the envy of Africa! Their fathers will hear of this–”

“No, they won’t.”

“Jamai, those boys should be punished.”

She gripped my arm and insisted, “Let them have their way. Once I’ve been initiated into the tribe, they’ll have no choice but to accept me.”

That made sense, so I let the matter drop. We worked another hour, trying to ignore the flies whining about us. When the rain petered down, we Ioaded the tools in the mahuti’s chute and sent it back to its shed.

The instant Jamai ‘s feet stepped from the field, she was swarmed by dozens of butterflies that almost seemed frantic for her company. A momentary spring carne into her step, and with her allies flapping around us we walked up the trail, lugging several sacks of pickings on our backs. A weaverbird poked its head from its nest as we passed, then nipped back inside to tend its young.

As our village, Baba Elgonyi, came in sight I felt Jamai’s nails dig into my arm. She smiled but her grip tightened. The shoulder-high grass was kept trim by automated mahutis to ankle-height in a twenty-meter radius around the village, which was bracketed by acacias.

By the time we reached Baba Elgonyi Jamai ‘s smile had vanished altogether. Old women scolded me with their eyes, their mouths puckering in disdain. Jamai glanced at a mother and child. The little one ducked behind her mother’s skirt, and Jamai stared longingly at the ground.

Part of me wanted to scream. What was the matter…no, I already knew. Part of it was pride. Our elders claimed to be the true custodians of African tradition. Such claims were dubious at best; our celebrating a festival that originated in the American Union ought to be proof of that!

Of all our people Jamai followed the Old Ways most faithfully, and that had to gnaw at their entrails. Yet the biggest part was that, emotionally, Jamai had always been something of a mouse. And mice attract -tormentors.

But this mouse had claws—a power she didn’t understand and couldn’t control. This, plus her outlandish appearance, made her someone to avoid. She didn’t want this but what could we do? Only slender, knobby-kneed Kalila Maji had the courage to call out to us. We exchanged greetings, then we moved on. I nearly jumped out of my skin when Jamai gave a husky shout: “HODI!”

Ah, we were near her father’s dwelling, so it was proper to announce our coming with the traditional cry. Her breath wheezed away in the next moment. I soon saw why. There stood her father Siboniso Dlamini and her grandmother Cele, old and frail but no less straight or proud than she’d been in her youth. I didn’t know the other fellow until Jamai whispered, “Uncle Kadar…”

So this was her long-lost uncle. He was a slight man, not so muscular as mzee Dlamini, but tall and lean. There was a difference in spirit, too. He practically radiated sociability and joy, a great contrast to his brother’s expressionless gloom.

At her father’s bidding Jamai approached with awkward steps, a gazelle in unfamiliar territory. I’d rarely seen her so small and brittle. After some time where she looked like she would swallow her teeth, she lowered her gaze and murmured, “Jambo, mzee.”

She wasn’ t ready to commit herself, uncle or no. The silence was abruptly shattered when Kadar Dlamini lunged and practically sucked her into an embrace. Her eyes flashed wide with shock. She glanced to me, mouthing, “What do I do?”

I shook my head, mouthed back: “Oh no, you decide

She bared her teeth. Slowly her fists uncoiled and clung to her uncle’s tunic. The elder Dlaminis took Jamai inside their hut. I was still standing there rather stupidly until Cele Dlamini squeezed my arm, saying, “We shall expect your family for dinner this evening.” Then she too entered the hut,

At home in my room I lay on a woven grass mat hoping to relax. I started thinking, anyway. I suppose it was my youth, yet for several seasons the Kwanzaa ceremonies hadn’t meant as much as it had when I was a child. Jamai was part of the problem. In past Kwanzas she was always at her father’ s knee. I made a habit at each year’s karamu dance of asking her to dance. She in turn always refused and I would find another partner. At night’s end she would compliment my dancing and follow docily behind her father.

In the two seasons past Jamai had been a stranger to the dance, and I had found partners few and far between. No one was accusing me of being a kohingo, or heart- breaker; they simply found excuses to beg off on.

What was it with Jamai and me? Since our first meeting I ‘d treated her like a younger sister… well, perhaps that was it. I’ d lost a brother and sister before my eighth year. I must have had a need to protect those closest to me. Perhaps I think too much, also,

My family’ s dinner was quiet. All the Kwanzaa implements were spread on the sacred mat. Center-stage as it were was held by the kinara, or candelabrum, having one candle for each of the seven days of Kwanzaa. At one corner was the corn, symbolizing children. My father’s eyes often wandered to them, perhaps remembering the ones he had lost, On the wall behind us was the bendara flag with Nguzo Saba, the Seven Values, written across its red, black and green bands.

On the five days past we had celebrated the principals guiding us and knitting our peoples’ together. Tonight, the sixth, was no exception. Our words were no different than any other families, so I will not waste any space in repeating them. It was afterwards that we threaded our way through the crowd gathering for the evening’s festivities to mzee Dlamini t s dwelling.

We heard the ululations and stamping of happy dancers from our host’s guest room. Tonight was the community feast Karamu, and all the village’s families had come together to celebrate. Later on would come the libation speech. For now there would be singing, dancing and poets expounding their verse.

Kadar Dlamini, I observed, listened to the ringing drums with delight. A cushioned bench ran around the inner curve of the partition wall, separating this room from the rest of the house. I sat beside my parents, then carne Jamai’s grandmother and the two reunited brothers. Jamai was on her knees, much to her father’s chagrin, at his feet. Traditionally this was the place for an elder’s daughter, though frankly I think Jamai took the Old Ways too literally sometimes.

The unity cup was passed around, beginning with Siboniso Dlamini. Jamai sipped from it next, then her uncle Kadar until we each had taken a sip. After much small talk, Kadar turned to Jamai. “Your father tells me you have been silent these five nights regarding Nguzo Saba,” said he. “Does something disturb you? Tell us.”

“No, nothing is the matter, n she replied, too softly. “I haven’t found my direction, that’s all. It’s nothing.”

It was a lie, everybody knew that. We also knew it was a matter to be discussed in private, so we did not press her. Now Kadar Dlamini addressed his brother. “It is time I explained why I am here. But first, I want it known that I had no objections to your marriage outside the tribe. That is your own affair.”

“Thank you, brother,” Siboniso Dlamini said.

“Brother, our family has finally been persuaded that fifteen years has been long enough. Your kin invite you to spend the final days of Kwanzaa in Kibarenge.”

A world of expression chased itself across mzee Dlamini’s face—disbelief, doubt, finally open-mouthed joy. This news had to be the fulfillment of fifteen years’ hopes. Jamai pressed his knees together and nodded excitedly. Still, he hesitated. “Brother, I’m delighted, but …I am expected to deliver the libation speech tonight—”

“Leave them a visual,” Cele Dlamini snorted. “Others have done so.”

“Then I accept, brother. Tell our elders Jamai and I won’t be long.”

Kadar’s features lengthened. His hands twitched as he spoke “Brother, the invitation…was for you alone.” The regret was evident in his tones. Still, the effect on mzee Dlamini was electric.

“Is that supposed to be an invitation? You welcome me and reject my child!”

“It wasn’t my decision! The family elders are not prepared to accept one of foreign blood, even now. I told them this was foolish–”

“Not bloody well hard, it would seem!”

Neither combatant noticed their mother Cele pull her shawl tighter around her body. With a sinking heart I looked to Jamai. Her hair was beginning to stir, a sure sign of the spirits working in her. “Elders I said quietly, but my father silenced me with an impatient gesture. Beside me Mama asked, “Youssou, is there a ventilation leak somewhere?”

I swallowed, then gave her an abashed smile. Cele Dlamini had also noticed and sat erect. Jamai’s hair now flowed as though it were propelled by a harmattan wind. Only when the walls creaked did the elder DIaminis cease fighting. This home had survived earthquakes and monsoons with impunity. Now we could all feel the floor shudder under our heels. Power was building inside her spirit and I feared a terrible blow when it was released.

Trembling with her own turmoil, Jamai slammed her hands on her knees, shrieking like an enraged mandrill: “SHUT UP!”

Thunder smashed in our ears, rock scraped. The room threw us in a sideways lurch. When our hearts resumed beating, at a faster pace now, we saw a crack in the partition wall behind the two brothers deep enough and wide enough to slip one’s hand into.

After that spectacle nobody dared speak. Jamai sagged onto her knees; these surges were always a drain, I knew. The scent of perspiration salted the air. I will not be the cause of this,” she said. “Go with him, Baba. I will stay.”

“That’ s a relief.”

My family and I stared with absolute astonishment, as did Cele Dlamini–and Kadar. The speaker, Siboniso Dlamini, glanced around the circle of faces and hastily added, “The better to heal our family’s rift. Perhaps next year they will have come to their senses and accept my child.”

Next year, I fumed inside. How many times had I heard this before? Next dance, next Kwanzaa. But Jamai nodded, as she had countless times before.

Needless to say our gathering degenerated into polite conversation. My family said its farewells long before Jamai had begun to clear the dishes. While the others said their goodbyes, I ducked towards the kitchen when Jamai was scrubbing dishes by hand, alleviating her frustration in fevered activity.

Then her uncle stepped in from another doorway. I hung back, fuming, as he paused, his hands crossed in front. With her back still turned Jamai said with a plea, “Leave me alone.”

Kadar took her arm and turned her to him. “Little one, this isn’t what I wanted. Your cousins are simply… dense.” Jamai huffed, but she almost smiled. “You understand?”

She nodded again, deferring in silence. He hugged her, and then, perhaps because of the surroundings, my head cleared. Yes, I thought, there was still something I could do. I wasted no time gathering allies. Hurrying back to the guest room, I took Mama and Cele Dlamini aside. They needed little persuading to go along with my plan.

Everything fell into place fairly easily. Yes, yes, we didn’t have the official Kwanzaa implements, but we made do. In a clearing not far from Baba Elgonyi, a poster-board became our mat, leftovers our provider. Between us we were able to cop seven candles and a pair of antiques which, when put close together, made a fair imitation of a kinara.

I was helping to hang silk screen prints from my room on nearby limbs and vines. As she arranged our makeshift table-mat, Cele Dlamini asked, “Aren’t you concerned you may well widen the rift between yourself and your friends? You cannot be loyal to two masters.”

I paused only a moment in my actions; Cele Dlamini did not. “You are a hunter who has chanced upon a gazelle of extraordinary loveliness,” she said. “Moreover, it heeds your voice. Your brothers fear it is diseased from its mother’s womb, that this is why its mother died. Soon they begin to fear you have been as well, and with sticks and pebbles they try to drive it off. For your sake, it will not leave.”

She straightened over her work and studied me wryly. “Why am I different?” I blurted, “Why am I the only one to see what’s good in her?”

“When you see my granddaughter, she replied, “You behold what a wonderful thing Ngai has created. That is your gift. There is also your father’s stubborn streak. You may need that. There will come a time you will have to stand alone by her side.”

“Let them come,” I retorted. “I will fight them, individually or in pairs–” And I may have gone on all night if Cele Dlamini hadn’ t laughed. I laughed, too, but she had given me pause. My spirit was part of the rocks and springs and the land that was Baba Elgonyi. To be cut off from my friends and kin was not part of my plan, if one could say that I even had a plan. I turned to the third party in our conspiracy. “What of you, Kali la Maji? Is the risk worth the prize?”

“My father is not the council of elders,” she replied in her birdsong voice. She stood in the fork of a ground-hugging tree, hanging ribbons. “Not everybody hates Jamai, they just haven’t the courage to rise above the rabid jackals in charge.”

That was a point I hadn’t considered, Kalila was hanging another ribbon when Mama staggered through it. Cele Dlamini and I rushed to take her burdens.

And what burdens! A fiber-sack dangled from one arm, a tote of food was tucked in the other. On her head was a silvery box-like contraption which Kalila snatched up while we exchanged “jambos.” “An Atomizer 2-7!” she exclaimed. “I’ve always wanted one!”

I ignored her ramblings over the music box and asked Mama where Jamai was. She panted, “She’ll be along shortly. She wants us to play the track on that disc.”

That was more in Kalila’s field. Like an excited monkey she fiddled with controls, seemingly at random but with actual precision. Fortunately she tuned the volume down to .05; after all, it was not called an Atomizer without good reason.

From the machine came a steady pounding of a drum, beating a one-two rhythm. Toom-dm-dm-toom…then, above the drumbeats there was a shaking of leaves. Her presence was near, yes. My gaze rose into the tangle of’ vines above.

From a point five meters above us issued a keening moan, A silhouette began to rise, arms curved like leopard’s claws. There was no need to guess who that shadow was. Beside me, Mama gasped. Cele Dlamini was more serene, watching Jamai with interest. As for myself, I felt a surge of excitement rising in my belly. Jamai did not disappoint us.

Her arms snaked up and crossed above her head. While the rest of her body was quite still, her hips swayed sinuously, attentive to the drum’s every beat. The keening became a whisper, then a song.

With hips still in motion, she did a half-turn, curtsey, another spin. She glided beneath a branch, moving with a butterfly’s grace. Mama began to keen, too, though for vastly different reasons. Meanwhile, Kalila Maji was whispering quiet encouragement as Jamai went on with the dance.

The drumbeats quickened. Jamai I s feet pattered faster on the branch, about as fast as my heart thumped within my chest. The branches had to be slippery from the recent downpour. One slip would bring her crashing down. No, I scolded myself, I wouldn’t allow such thoughts.

She spun, her feet completely leaving their perch. For an instant that stretched into infinity my body went numb and my blood turned to water. In the same breath she completed the turn. Jamai flung her arms wide and with a cry of “haiii!”, the dance was over.

She clambered down a vine to our applause. Flushed and perspiring from her endeavor she ran to me, crying, “Jambo, Youssou! Habari yako?”l

“Mauri sana, Jamai,” I replied, adding, “Don’t you ever do that to me again.”

Jamai overlooked that remark. “Mama Hadebe, Jambo! And Kalila Maji, tool What a far-flung conspiracy you’ve gathered, Youssou!”

We settled down for what amounted to a small snack. Here talk was not stifled by fear of idle ears. Kalila and Jamai spoke of women’s things until I had the muster to ask, “How did you, well…?”

“You are glass, Youssou,” Jamai said wickedly. “My eyes are everywhere, in the tallest baobab or the lowliest sprig.” A pale-winged butterfly fluttered onto the knuckle of her upraised finger, which made her point rather effectively. “When my friends showed me your haul it wasn’t hard to guess your intent. Besides, you have been a good and trusty friend. I wanted to thank you without words.”

“You have,” I agreed, raising a gourd. We all did the same and together drank a toast. I ‘m afraid Cele Dlamini dampened our festive spirit.

“Granddaughter, it is still customary for you to speak what you believe about the Seven Values. Has Nguzo Saba no meaning for you?”

Jamai bowed her head. “No, Grandmother, why should it? I don’t know I should believe about myself, or where I belong.”

“We know that,” Kalila grinned. “That’s why we invited you here, so we could be a clan unto ourselves

Jamai hadn’t yet raised her eyes, but a smile grew at the corners of her mouth. “You’re right, I am a selfish child. Perhaps…” She reached into the trusty pouch around her waist. “I should give this to you now.”

She passed me a narrow wooden tube, with holes drilled along the spine. “You made me a flute,” I said, rather stupidly.

know you like made-things,” she said. I blew in the mouthpiece and was rewarded with a pleasant whistle. Not perfect, but well enough. Jamai started to turn away.

I held up the cloth-wrapped package I’d been carrying all night. Jamal watched as I peeled back the corners, then her eyes flashed bright, green. I was holding an armband of polished brass. On it was a raised pattern featuring her totem, with its wings spreading from the hinged edge. It took me three months to make but her awed stare was worth all the effort.

She hardly breathed as I clapped the band to her arm. For the longest time she fondled it, just grazing it with her fingertips. Taking her hand, I guided her to our improvised kinara.

Five of the seven candles were lit. She took one tapir, I took another. As we touched the tiny flames to the last candles, the distant drumbeats from the village reached a shattering crescendo…then died out altogether.

The tapirs froze in our hands. The dance wasn’ t scheduled to end before dawn; it was scarcely past moonrise, Kalila Maji hurried back to investigate. Jamai climbed onto the fork of a dead baobab and watched her do. Twenty minutes later Kalila returned with news that made the lot of us pack our things and follow her home.

Everything was as Kalila had said. The beaten paths in the marketplace were deserted. Lights shone from every home, but not a soul was about in the village. A circle of inward-curving hooklamps still illuminated the Celebratory Square. In the purified dust, delivered only five days ago, were the imprints of dozens of feet, all leading away from the lights.

Jamai gazed at me with beetled brows, but I couldn’t understand this, either. The karamu was the height of our Kwanzaa festivities. Where had everyone gone? Suddenly my father appeared, calling “Jambo, my friends!” We all mumbled a dazed “jambo” and continued to stare like mesmerized goats.

Father said to Jamal, “I didn’t hear what you said to your baba, child, but it appears he has heeded you. What did you tell him?”

Jamai fidgeted with her hands. “I-I only spoke from my heart,” she said. “I said I was tired, that I wanted to dance with the elder mothers like every other girl.”

As I listened Jamai t s shoulders no longer slumped. The hesitancy vanished from her voice. “I told him I wanted to run with the children and browse in the market without feeling like the crawling death. There’s nothing wrong with that, is there?”

Father beckoned us into the communal hut. Once in the ground floor Reception Hall, he played back the libation visual that mzee Dlamini had given a little over an hour ago.

It wasn’t, a flattering speech. The entire village was brought under condemnation for ‘having violated the spirit of Kwanzaa’, as he put it. This was on account of our arrogance, he said, and our self-deception in believing we represented the pure African. He closed by saying, “Go to your homes, and contemplate the folly we have all committed.”

None of us knew what to say. Father solemnly stood. “The elders have rescheduled the karamu for two nights hence. We would be honored if you would attend, Jamai Dlamini.”

Upon hearing this Jamai’s arms flopped to the ground where she knelt. Her eyes shone as she tried to stammer a reply. “She says yes, Father,” I finally said.

“What does my father say? n Kalila asked.

“He boils as the waters of Baganda Falls,” Father chuckled, “but in this he was overruled.” At Father’s urging our little party returned to our homes also. All but Jamai and me. Her hands still brushed the gleaming band on her arm.

“The dance you did tonight was the most assertive act you’ve ever done,” I told her. “I’ m proud that you did this for us.”

“For you, she whispered, with an intensity l t d never heard from her before. ” l’ d walk through Hell for you, Youssou. I’ve tasted your heart and know it to be true.” Her hands sought mine, squeezed tight. “Whatever comes, whatever devils we might face, know that I am yours, flesh, blood and spirit.”

“And I ‘m yours,” I replied with equal fervor. Hand in hand we watched the flames of the kinara, burning bright.

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This story was originally published in Medusa’s Hairdo, @ 1997 Byrd White Press, editor Beverly Moore.

Character Development

How do you progress with a character you adore? Trust me on this, as the author and creator you are the last person with any objectivity on this subject. I’ve been carrying the soul of my OC Jamai since my high school days, which isn’t saying much considering way back when she was second banana to her lover Youssou’s predecessor Conan-the-Barbarian wanna-be. Oh yeah, they were white too. A white barbarian tribe in Africa. That’s how much work I had cut out for me.

Well, yes. I brought that on myself. Fortunately, I was connected with some friends in a Seattle group that called itself Writer’s Cramp. I’m trying to remember all the details; forgive for if I get a few wrong. I was invited to one such meeting, in Kent I believe, and as we were leaving for home, Fran asked what I thought. I just spent two hours reviewing the works of five people who were considerably more talented and imaginative than I was, who took considerable pleasure in ripping their precious works to shreds. All I could say was, “You guys are vicious!”

That kind of breaking things down from the ground up was exactly what I needed. It was a hard couple of years, but I am grateful to all my friends for the grueling education in improving your science fiction writing that I acquired. What this meant for Jamai was that I had to take a few months off to do a hard reset.

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For starter, that whole ‘white barbarians in an African setting’ b.s. had got to go. Second, and in no way would I suggest there was a stark moment of enlightenment that drove my thinking at this point. Doesn’t really happen in writing, folks. Sorry. At some point, however, I started putting Jamai face-forward, as she seemed to be the stronger character, even with the shoddy works I’d been showcasing her in before.

So where did that leave us? Well, now we had a new problem, something you may have noticed with most TV programs and comic book characters. Namely, that at the beginning of each story Jamai wound up at the same point she started at in the last fekking story! My strategy, such as it was, would be to lead up to the big life-defining conflict she’d face as an adult. The new stories began in childhood and would lead her through her teens. My friends in Writers Cramp pointed this weakness out to me, and honestly, I didn’t want to hear it! I knew what I was doing! Heh heh, I thought did, anyway.

Took a while for the lesson to sink in. Things happened. I lost contact with Cramp, and in the Double-Oughts, the ever-lovin’ 2000’s, I was engaged in a self-engaged quest to raise awareness for the issue of the slave trade in the Sudan. I was proud of the work I did with my fictional team, the Emancipation Posse; I think I did some of my best work with this book collection. I loved these people: Kate, Fong, Quench and Dru. And about three stories in, I added my favorite OC to the mix.

This wasn’t the same girl I’d ben writing tales for before, though. This was Old Jamai, hereafter known as Granny. I liked Old Jamai. She was confident, self-assured, a spiritual guide who did not suffer fools. I needed that time apart in her narrative to jog my brain cells and figure out how that young lady grows into the goddess she would become. And in a way I’m still exploring that issue.

 

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